You make my heart race.

It's been forever, and you do this to me now. I thought things were done with. Now your making me feel.. feel like I used too. And I can't handle that, even if I wanted too.

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What just happened brought back so many amazing memories. I'm like shaking, and my heart is racing. Just when I thought everything was okay. You come back into my life.

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I don't know how any of this ended up like it did. But I don't think either of us could answer that. You seriously had me from the beginning, and then we just drifted. I didn't want to do what I did. But I thought it was right. And look how that wound up. It's stupid.

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We're both idiots. And I hate you for everything you've ever done to hurt me. But I still care about you. Even if I don't want to. I still love you. But thats unconditional. Fuck you, this, us, everything thats ever happened.

I think your like the most perfect person, yet I see nothing but flaws. It doesn't make any sense. And I don't think it's supposed to. But whatever. I'll let it go. But I still want to know exactally what went through your mind when I said what I said at the car. And why you went for it. Even if you don't care about me. Which from what you tell me you do. And when I ended everything it was only because you acted as if I wasn't as great as I used to be. But you went on about how you were testing my love.

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I'm sorry but when I'm in a relationship all I do is care, and I let my gaurd down, when I shouldn't. I don't understand why you'd have to test my love. Your rediculous, and you were out of excuses, don't lie. I hate that about you. I can't ever figure out if your being a sarcastic asshole, or if your serious. You could say I love you a million times, and I don't even know if I could believe you anymore. Your really not worth my time, but I want to spend every waking second with you. You made me fall faster then ever. You made me love more then I've ever loved. You made me feel like someone actually cared.

I just don't understand anymore. Nothing makes sense.

"You were a priority, was I an option?"