Dracula's Ball.

Wasn't as fun as I expected. Richi, Marissa, Cow, and myself went. I saw Ken, and Mark. It was nice. Marissa, Cow, and myself danced. Richi was being a silly boy. So, he wouldn't dance. I laughed at the sluts that were all over Ken. LOL, And protected Marissa from 438739 guys by saying we were dating. It was great. After the ball, we went to Cows house and gottt crunkkk, and of course me being the most light weight there, even though I'm the biggest got extreamly fucked up. Jeeeshhh sometimes I wish it didn't happen like that. Anyway, then we left, went to Wawa and I had to pee so we went to the bathrooms, and my tutu got all fkjdsfskl in everything else I was wearing and I was DRUNK so I walk out of the stall and go "MARISSA CAN YOU HELPP ME?!?!?!" lololollll, bahahaha, that was hilarious. So, we dropped Richi off and "Mikeys" and then went back to Cows, and everyone was like "Where's that cool dude? He was all chill." And I was like, "Ohhh well he lefted cause he was extresamly tiredsdd but mnaybee if you woiulda told him taaa stahhyy he would uv" Nick was like "Ohhh werrddd?" LOL, Ugh, we were only there for a bit. Then I fell down in Cow's drive-way. And then me and Marissa went back to my house, I layed down and she complainded about how her bed wasn't made. Bahaha. And then she was hungrey, so we went into the kitchen and I saw hot chocolate. She walks out there and I'm drinking it, she goes "AMBER DON'T DRINK COLD HOT CHOCOLATE!!!" and I start cracking up, and I spit it all out and I'm pretty sure half of it came out of my nose.. it was all over my hands too so when I fell on the ground laughing I kept slipping everywhere. And all we could think about was how amazing it would've been if Cow and Richi were there to witness that. Anyway, I cooked her eggs on my knees, because I didn't feel like standing up. She ate them, we slept in my bed together even though I have 3 mattressses. And then she left at 3pm. =[

FUNFUNFUNFUNFUN
What did we learn today?
YOUR MOMMA CAN'T DANCE!

Last Nocturne For A While.

Soo, we went to Nocturne last night, me foodless and sleepless. It was Marissa, Pat, Cow, and myself. ^_^ It was extreamly fun. But at first I was like really dizzy and stuff. I also noticed that I can't dance to some of the songs because they aren't the right beat. THEY PLAYED MARISSAS AND MY SONGS! The DING, and Military Fashion Showwww!!!!! YAYY!! Our last Nocturne for a while. And I had a whole lot of fun. Miss Natasha was there. And I love her a lot because she gives my crabs orgasms, lololol. No, I don't really have crabs.

I got elbowed in the eye really bad. I fixed it up, then, We danced, and danced. Saw Ken dance, got Pat to dance, Cow danced, Natasha danced, Mr.MarcGrimm, danced, and he MACKED IT with this girl. BAHAHAHAHAHA. That was great. And the only reason it happened because of this.
Marissa: "He wants you to go dance with him."
Me: "I don't know how to dance with guys like this!"
Marissa: "GOOO GETTT ITTT!!!"
Me: -laughing- "OMG MARISSA MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO!"
Marissa: "Yes, you do. He deffinetly wants to like kiss you."
Me: "-thinks well i do think he's cute- Ummmm"
Marissa: "I'll just pretend like I left you!!! -walks away-"
Me: "-thinking jesus omg whyyyy!!!" -walks to Mr.MarcGrimmmmm.- "SHE LEFT ME!!!"

Then of corse after 15 min of chillen with him on the dancefloor. THE DING SONG CAME ON!!!
So, I ran away and got Marissa, and I attempted to grab Ken to dance. FAIL. He likes to sit there and go -hits bell movement- DING! lol. Its cute. So, we danced to the DING. Then I went back to Marc. And we were chillen andd COUGH COUGH ! Baahahahaha! Then Cow ruined it and like tapped me and we had to go, so I hugged Marc and ran away. Then we lost Cow. So, we stayed in the club till the lights came on. And I hugged Ken like 35453098 times because I knew I proabably won't see him for a while. And that upsets me.

We left. I fell asleep in the car for like 15 min. Then TIME OUT FROM THE STORY MY SISTER JUST SAID LIGHTBULB. If you get this joke your my BIFFIE WALRUS! Anyway, then I woke up and looked at Pat and he goes,
"Amber."
"Yeahh?"
"I love you!"
"Whats wrong?"
"Nothing I'm just happy. And I love you!"
"Ohh, I love you too."
"GIMMIE A HUGG!!!"
[SHOUT OUT TO BIFFIE WALRUS I LOVE YOUUU!!]

Then we go to 711 at 2:30 in the morning. because it's on the way to my house. Pat gets us monster slurpees, and he got yummy chipps. Cow got this weiner thing. And then gave me a ciggerette "for the road" lol.

Bahahaha. We got close to my house. And I go "WHAT IF I'M LOCKED OUT?!?!?!?!", everybody gave me there own little funny thing on what to do. or they said oh well. Well, they dropped me off and I was locked out so I lit the ciggerette and drank the slushie. And I'm just so thankful that there was a crowbar, a hammer, and a lader outside. Even though I used only the crowbar.

Called Richi, and we were both out of it so we had an amazing conversation. "I'm a ramble muble" lolol. Richi really is like great to have as a friend. And you should all be jealous. LOL. I love him a lot. And I'm so happy he's going to Dracs ball. And then possibly sleeping over. Which I don't see why not because apparently Cow might be chillen with us for a little bit. It'll be fun. Didn't that seem like an eventful night?

I saw the Jonas Brothers!!!!

Well, today was eventful. I stayed up all night. Still awake, 29 hours maybe? Longest I've ever stayed awake. I'm going to Shampoo tonight because Cow is amazing. Anyway.. this morning I got a shower at like 5:30 am. Chilled in my bed, talked to Tobby <33>

We were planning on meeting the Jonas Brothers!! Whooo-hoo! -_-

They make nice music sometimes, and they're extreamly hott.

So, I thought I should go.. plus I've never seen a famous person up close.

IT WAS AMAZING.

We didn't meet them personally. We didn't talk. We screamed. Waiting willingly for 2 hours holding a camera up to be the first person to catch a glimpse of them!! It was great. I don't even like them HALF as much as my sister does. And she's like a hardcore JB phanatic! Crazzzy.. Anyway, like I don't know. But Like I all started tearing up. All that could come out of my mouth was "Oh my god" I couldn't believe it.

The kids that started out from re-making disney classics..

Who turned out to be great musicians.

Within 25 ft of me.

Nick, Joe, and Kevin Jonas.

Hmm, they came a nice distance of close. Waved. Went in there cars. They looked upset. I thought so atleast. But anyway, they started in there cars. And rolled down the windows. I had such an addrenniline rush that I ran over to see them one more time, and they pulled away. So, me and this girl started running to where the cars pull out, and this security gaurd was all "NOOOO" so I was all "HURRY HURRY GO GO GO GO" We got there. They were 2 feet infront of me. In there black escalade. Hmm. Kevin threw something to some fat boy. I don't know what it was. But I kept taping. He rolled down the window. One more time. AHHH!!!!

I was shaking so bad. I was so happy.

YAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY

We could've met them 1 on 1. But my mom decided we should leave the poster contest. When we could of very well won. Karissa had like the best poster in the world. Hmph.. oh well. Maybe next time.

I guess if I have the energy I'll write a new blog after Shampoo.

But here's the video I took of them.

I just will not eat.

So, me and my sister just got done doing a 2 mile walk work-out thing at 2:57am.. And I think I'm going to start exercising. I mean really. I'm really fat. And I need to like diet, and exercise. Or just will not eat. And exercise.I think I look fine sometimes. But I could be as gorgeous as I used to be. Hm.. yes, I think that sounds good. I'm tired of being the fat ugly girl that everyone thinks is worthless. Its time I got some attention. Oh my god. I just realize I didn't go to the beach at all this summer. No, I haven't gone to the beach this year. Jesus!!!! That's epic. Anyway yeah. I'm gonna start loosing weight. You'll see. EVERYONE will love me !! It'll be abso-fucking-loutly amazing. I kinda miss being the way I used to be. Conceded, yes of course, I had a perfect body, I really don't understand how I got the way I am, and no don't for one second say, "YOU ATE TO MUCH AND YOU DIDN'T EXERCISE" because that's not it at all. I just don't have a fast metabolism. The doctor even said so. It just stopped doing what it was supposed to, and now I'm as big as a whale. Don't try and stop me. I wanna be this way again, and I'm going to do whatever it takes. I wanna be who I used to, the girl who could have anyone she wanted whenever she wanted. The girl who got so many compliments from strangers. The girl that everyone loved to hate. Me. Skinny Me. I'm sick of everyone telling me, "Oh get skinny" or "Be like that again" This is my 6Th attempt. And I will complete it. With victory. I'll overcome my laziness, and irresponsibility for myself. Just so I can look in the mirror one more time and say, "God, I'm so fucking hott, seriously! Look at me! I'm gorgeous!" Hm.. and I think its pretty ridiculous when my mom calls her own daughter fat. "Every time I look at you your bigger and bigger. SHE SEE'S ME EVERYDAY! But whatever. I already hate the way I look. Lets let family make it worse. This is whats going on now. And so far I'm ready for the pain, struggle, and reward, from whats about to happen.

Now, lets not get too excited.

I post a lot of blogs.. -_-

BLAHHH, idfk.

I just found something amazing out.

But it's not going to happen.

Hmph. Well, maybe.

Idk. Its up to the one person who's on the other side of it.

Which makes the outcome look bad.

Perhaps, it's pretty much unfinished business.

That I think, idk about the other person, but I think it should become finished.

Maybe thats why I'm hooked. 0_0

But I'm telling myself, "Now, lets not get too excited."

Bahaha. It's 2:07 am.

& I think this thought is rediculous.

You make my heart race.

It's been forever, and you do this to me now. I thought things were done with. Now your making me feel.. feel like I used too. And I can't handle that, even if I wanted too.

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What just happened brought back so many amazing memories. I'm like shaking, and my heart is racing. Just when I thought everything was okay. You come back into my life.

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I don't know how any of this ended up like it did. But I don't think either of us could answer that. You seriously had me from the beginning, and then we just drifted. I didn't want to do what I did. But I thought it was right. And look how that wound up. It's stupid.

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We're both idiots. And I hate you for everything you've ever done to hurt me. But I still care about you. Even if I don't want to. I still love you. But thats unconditional. Fuck you, this, us, everything thats ever happened.

I think your like the most perfect person, yet I see nothing but flaws. It doesn't make any sense. And I don't think it's supposed to. But whatever. I'll let it go. But I still want to know exactally what went through your mind when I said what I said at the car. And why you went for it. Even if you don't care about me. Which from what you tell me you do. And when I ended everything it was only because you acted as if I wasn't as great as I used to be. But you went on about how you were testing my love.

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I'm sorry but when I'm in a relationship all I do is care, and I let my gaurd down, when I shouldn't. I don't understand why you'd have to test my love. Your rediculous, and you were out of excuses, don't lie. I hate that about you. I can't ever figure out if your being a sarcastic asshole, or if your serious. You could say I love you a million times, and I don't even know if I could believe you anymore. Your really not worth my time, but I want to spend every waking second with you. You made me fall faster then ever. You made me love more then I've ever loved. You made me feel like someone actually cared.

I just don't understand anymore. Nothing makes sense.

"You were a priority, was I an option?"

Let the past be the past.

Well, I am going to this thing called Dracula's Ball on Saturday with Marissa, Richi, and Cow. Well, I really don't like the fact that some people think that I don't defend them. I very well do, and I also don't like the fact that two of those people don't like each other, and the one thinks that the other CONSTANTLY talks shit about them. When he doesn't. I hate that I have to yell and give both of them shit because I'm trying to make them both happy but they never understand.
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Get over it. Let the past be the past. This is ridiculous.
Yes, they have their reasons. So, I won't question it.
I understand where they are both coming from.
But they both need to understand that they are my best friends.
I'm closer with one of them on this day, then the other the next.
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I love them equally. No matter where they are on my top. LOL!! BAHAHA!
-coughs- Anyway, that's not the point.
I honestly wish they could get along. Because it bothers me that my two best friends hate each other. Silly, Silly, nonsense. But its whatever.
--
I'll defend them both for now on. So none of this bullshit can continue.
If they're reading this. Then good.


Now they can understand.

Jaws' Birthday Show!

Sooo, yesterday I went with Marissa and Cow to Allentown PA for Jaws' birthday show. But before we left we went back to Cows house and we went in his little brothers room and he had lots and lots of candy. We stole one of everything. Then I realized I left my snapple in the house. And Cow was like "RUN IN AND GET IT!!" and I thought it was weird to go inside his house without him so I took Marissa with me. And we took 1000 more candies, and stuffed them in my shirt. But they were only green candies to give to Jaws.Well, yeah, Ken was there and he had his normal eyes. Which really took me by surprise. I gave him 1000 hugs.. as usual. Marissa and I finally struck up enough courage to go up to Jaws and give him his present. Then my fishnets got caught on some girls purse. -_- Jaws called us over to a quieter place, and was like "Aww You guys are the best" and of course Cow had to ruin it by laughing like "AHHHUHGHH AHAHAH" Silly Cow. Then we got a little hug from Jaws. It was great. We walked around. Listened to bands. We watched cow dance. I danced for a hott second. Marissa didn't want to dance because she had cobble robble a mobble pobble sobble. Which mad me upset. There were Definitely some cute people there. Hmm. I kept bumming cigarettes off of people. It was amazing. Something I could never quiet do at freaknight. =]
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Anyway, so we were watching My Parasites play, and they were throwing this baby around.. It looked adorable. So, I wanted it. And I got it. Jaws also smashed a glass bottle over his head he bled. They kept making sparklers with metal when my favorite song by them Now function was being played. A few got on my arm, one got in Marissas eye. Jaws got beer splashed in his eye. He jumped off stage. lol.
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Then of course I didn't know the baby had chicken livers in it. FAIL!!! And I only found that out because this girl asked me and Marissa to pose for a picture with it. And then she was like "Oh by the way, did you know that has Chicken livers in it?" I was like oh my. And I went to the bathroom with Marissa plopped the chicken livers into the sink, and Marissa nearly threw up. So, she made me through the baby away, even though Jaws named it Glitch. Blahhh, Then I promised this guy in this band that I'd watch him. But I couldn't cause Cow always wants to leave early. So, I gave Ken a hug. And we went home. What did we learn today? NEVER DRIVE WITH COW. HE MAKES YOU BUMP YOUR HEAD!