This makes sense.

Don't dwell on it. Especially if you think there's still some potential.
Because chances are there isn't. And you guys aren't going to get back together.
I've experienced this first hand. And I know how it feels. And it hurts.
So, don't dwell on getting back together no matter how much they make it feel
like its possible because your honestly only going to cause yourself more pain.

& It'll never be the same.

I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.
I don't know what happened.
No body wants to tell me.
Apparently I fucked up.
But whatever.
Hmm.

Used?

Fuck.

won kun ty non fah huh

CLICK ON THAT IMAGE.
QUOTES FROM ME AND MIKE.
<3
Lmao.

Decode this.

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gaGVscCBtZS4gWW91IG5ldmVyIHdpbGwuIA0KSSBzd29yZSBJIHdh
cyBkb25lIHdpdGggdGhpcy4gU2xpdHRpbmcgbXkgc2tpbiBvcGVuIGp1c3Qgd
G8gZmVlbCByZWxpZWYuIEl0J3MgZnVja2luZyBidWxsc2hpdC4gV2UgbGl2ZSBpbiB
hIGZ1Y2tpbmcgd29ybGQgd2l0aCBhIGZ1Y2tpbmcgY29ydXB0ZWQgc29jaWV0eS
4gQW5kIHlldCwgd2UncmUgZnJlZT8gRlVDSyBGUkVFRE9NLiBGVUNL
IFRISVMuDQoNCkknbSBkb25lLiBJJ20gZG9uZS4NCkknbGwgc3RheS
BhbGl2ZS4NCkJ1dCBpdCBkb2Vzbid0IG1lYW4gdGhhdCB5b3UgY2FuIHN
0b3AgbWUgZnJvbSBldmVyeXRoaW5nIGJ1dC4uDQoNCkZ1Y2sgeW91Lg==

Yes, It says something.
How I fucking feel right about now.
>_<

Quitting?

I think I'm done with drugs.
Like for real.
I said it yesterday.
I quit.
No more drugs.
I haven't done them in 11 days.
Well besides caffine engery pills.
But thats not a drug so that count.

Next up I do think I'm only going to drink on occasion.
Not like heavily like I did like last week every night.
But its not like I was getting trashed or anything.
Just a little drunk.
Thats all.

Smoking.. will be last.
It's just.. I don't know if I want to stop.


I'm going to start cleaning my life up.
Plus.. it's all idiotic and pointless.
So, why waste time..
I mean I've expiremented enough with most of it.
So, why should I continue fucking up my body.
Rediculous.
LOL.

Done.

What?

I want something I can have. I have something I've wanted. But I don't completely have it. Never will. It's not going to happen. But it's not something I'll attach on too. Well, I don't want to atleast. Shit happens. Whether or not you regret it. Your happy it did. And your happy it'll continue. I don't know. I like this person. But I can't like them. I don't know if it's him.
Or who he reminds me of.

And if this person reads this and figures it out.
It's going to be awkward.
Ahaha.

Anyway, I had something amazing happen onnn... Friday? I believe it was.
Not saying what. Because I'm not allowed. BUT OMFG JESUS LORD AYE CARUMBA. It was the best fun I've ever had! Lions are fun. Yess. Yes they are.

More stuff.. hmm... umm...
Me and Marissa aren't really talking anymore.
Richi won't allow it.
Aha. I learned what risque' means.
What else.. hmm...

I also learned that Mike and I have the same mind..
Well he won't admit it..
But it's true.
And it's hilarious.
Bahaha. He won't make a video for youtube either.
So I made him one, saying that he should make one.
And he named it for me..
It kinda went like this on aim, minus the screenames.
"Mike, name my video."
"Yes."

I hate when people do that.. Except I did it yesterday on accident ONLY BECAUSE I COULDN'T HEAR WHAT LYSSA'S DAD WAS SAYING..
We were going to Wendy's to get free 2in frostys lol.
And he goes.
"Which way?"
And I'm like..
"Yes."

>_<
I THOUGHT HE SAID "THIS WAY?"
LOLOL.
I'm a real idiot sometimes.
But I'm amazing so it doesn't matter.

I don't know what else to write.
I'M EXTREMLY FUCKING BORED.
AND NO ONE IS ONLINE.
JESUS CHRIST PEOPLE..

Jessica on Mucinex DM lmao.

I'm writing down everything she's saying. lmao

"I'm floating everywhere, I can see it on your celieng I am floating everywhere. WOAH! -looks around- thats so weird. Holy shit. Holy crap. I.. SAW THE CELIENG AND EVERYTHING. -closes eyes- .............trying to wait to see what else I see............I'm falling backwards. I'm falling.. backwards into a tornado, tornado.. don't eat me tornado. awwweee I DON'T EVEN LIKE TORNADOS I NEVER HAVE! My body feels like a sponge. Why am I in SPACE?? woahh. how can i be in space.. this is SO COOL!! ..................-whispers- spacee... space...

THE MOOON..............oh its really dark...HOW IS IT SO LIGHT NOW? AMBER I WAS JUST IN SPACE HOW IS IT LIGHT NOW.
-sings- Loose conroolllll I love you I love you

AM I MOVING. now I'm tall I think. woah.
I hate myself.
Amber's where's the camera?
it's so wierd because when i shut my eyes i go into different worlds.
you know what i mean?
didn't i go though this already.
alright here it is.
amber i was in space.
it was so fun

you said east.
east
east.

icky icky icky.
the garage moted into lava.
it melted.
it was so amazing

nooonoo
I SAW THE FLOWER IT WASN'T VERY NICE THERE WAS GHOSTS AND....
i didn't like it
I SAW ONE JUST NOW GET IT OUT
get it out"


She's so fucked up. XD