FUCKED UPPPPPP XD

Last night I drank a quater bottle of vodka.

A bottle of wine.

And smoked.

Jessica never shuts the fuck up when she's stoned.

THEN OMG.

She was like, I feel this.

I'm going from STONED to HIGH!

I'm sitting there like what did you jsut say??

And she looked at me like 0_-

AND WE START CRACKING UP.

I lost my ciggerettes a little before we went out to smoke.

funshit.<3

Bahaaaa.

Today I didn't go to school, because I'm sick.
And I went with my Mom to register Gia for school, then we went to the Cohanzic zoo, or however you spell it, and Chubba had pretzels to feed the geese.
So, shes running up to them, I'm running after her, and I OF COURSE GET ATTACKED.

Not cute.
lol.

Lettuce is in your ears.

so i'm staying home today because my mom doesn't think its needed for me to be driven to school, and then at 11:30 be picked up because my father is coming here to bring me something. so she said it was a waste of gas. so, now i'm stuck watching the kids to earn money.. amazing isn't it?
Max and Ruby is on because these kids like to watch obnoxious show's. Ones that repeat the same word over and over again. Some call it learning, I call it annoying. I did giggle at the fact that she said,
"Max your sandwich isn't in you, its on you! You look disgusting! Jam on your face, lettuce in your ears. You need to take a bath!"

Oh boy naked cartoon rabbit!!!!!
The best part of that is he keeps spillling stuff in the tub and it turns him different colours.

But the rest is stupid.
Now my sister is dancing with pretzels.
I will be taking pictures today.
I wish I could've went to school.
I was going to wear my new tutu over some skinny jeans.
It was cute.
I thought so.

Chillen today.
Nocturne tonight.
School tomorrow.

I feel really weird..

I have not gotten involved with anyone new.
So, why do I feel like I just got my heart broken.
I've closed off all other feelings for past relationships.
Or tried atleast.
I hate feeling this way.
It bothers me.

fuckkkk

You mean nothing

I want somebody to love.
Eveyone's energy is becoming unbalanced in my eyes.
I can't feed off of it.
Which is bad.
I need a person.
Who will love me.

Not like the ones in the past.
You all mean nothing to me anymore.
It's bulshit if you ask me.
I really hate it.
The contant hurt.


BLAH, Mike is watching Jepordy, and he knows like all the answers.
I answered one of them. Wow. He should go on the show and win me money.
That would be nice of him.


Idk, I wonder if I'm bi-polar.
Just a thought.

I'm obviously just not good enough.

I need a really ugly best friend. So, everyone I start to crush on stops going for her.
It's bullshit.

Can I like not be happy?

Cow.

Cow is just so creepin.

"Ohh, yeahh, I just want you soo bad, all over my face and body.."

^^ he made me write that.

he just said "yeah i did"

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

little cow is little.

sleepy cow is sleepy.

FUCKING STUPID COW.

bahahahhahahahahhaa

You.

You are the only one who can do this to me.
I'm so glad we're talking again.
You were my life.

I can't wait to hold you in my arms again.


I lovee you.

I'M BACK BITCHES!!!!

Bahaha, Schalick.

I'M BACK!!!!!



And I'll never leave you again.

I just need to get a new locker... since mine doesn't like to open.. -_-





funnnnn

You really don't understand.

I need to stop.

Hopefully everything will work out.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for everyone. And I really want to go back to Schalick. But apparently I'm still in the system, so I'm going to go tomorrow, and hopefully everything will work-out, and they will give me a scheduel and I'll be on my way.

I have no new clothes. But I did bleach part of my hair. It's cute. I think.
I could be at the club right now. I would've been there for 2 hours already. I really hate this. I feel all fluttery, but not a good kind. I don't want to stop going. I feel like I'm supposed to be there.

I don't know where this blog is going.
But haha.
Night.

I can’t believe you’re gone, you were my life all along

"I can’t believe my eyes you are not here to save my life
and I don’t want to go, I love you I love you, but I’ve lost control
I can’t believe you’re gone, you were my life all along
now bury me below, I love you, I love you, but I have to go.."

^^ thats epic.

I'm not getting any better. Make it all dissappear. And I promise I'll be fine.
I haven't felt like this in a really long timeee. And of course I'll cover it up.
I always have. No one really knows anything about it either. It's funny in a way.
I don't.. I mean.. I really.. It's not..
What?
I honestly can say that its worse then before. And I regret getting like this.
Mmmmmhmmmm.

I'm going to bed.
I have no clue what tomorrow brings.

Bad things.

I started doing a bad nonsense again.
NO NOT DRUGS. Stupid.
I happen to have nice reasons to do this silly thing.
Which isn't so silly, if it helps.
I really don't want to go back to the old days.
Like 3 years ago when I did it hardcore.
Its been 5 years I have been doing it.
On and Off.
I don't understand how it came to that today.
But I laughed afterwords.

Fun shit.
BAHAHAHA!