So, don't cry darling.

So, these past few days whether or not I've showed it I've been pretty distraught.
I can hide it well, huh?
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I met.. well I didn't actually like meet them.. but you understand.
Yeah, so I met a new friend. :]
He's pretty fucking amazing. Like really, I'm serious.
I've been making videos like crazy..
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Idk, fuck my life though. It's fucking sucking some major asshole atm.
Everything is going downhill, and honestly I can't talk to anybody.
Because I can't trust anyone.. well, yeah I trust some people. And they know who they are.
But I just wish I had some stranger to talk to, someone who doesn't really know me.
Someone who doesn't judge me.
Someone who doesn't care.
Someone who's been there already.
Fuck it. I mean I guess I could talk to somebody about the situations I'm in atm. But
It's not like they'd actually care to listen.
I have to many untrustworthy friends.
I mean they'll listen, but then blab off to someone else like, "Aw Omg, Amber is so upset and blahblah" then ten minuetes later I'll get an IM from someone and they'll be like
SO I HEARD YOUR UPSET.
Yeah... Fuck that. I'm not dealing with it.
Plus everyone gives me sympathy.. I don't want your fucking sympathy. I want your help and advice, I don't want you to feel bad, and say, "Aw I'm Sorry" No fuck that. Tell me something constructive.

Idk why I'm blogging, I haven't done this in forever.
fuck it, i'll probably blog again later.
D:
Save me.


But I can't Breathe without you but I have to.